my memoirs

my birthday :]

2006-10-31T00:36:00.000+08:00

its my birthday, hope maging masaya ako, although my time parin na malungkot ako, di parin ako nawawalan ng pag-asa maging masaya..hehe

GODBLESS

baccc....SiNGLE AND LOViN iT

2006-10-22T14:40:00.000+08:00

grabe, its been quite a while since i last visited my blog, nadaan ako pano, while reading a magazine, in w/c they featured some blogs also from blogspot, i then remembered, may blog pala ako, bad me hehe..

anyhoo, time really goes so fast, i was hired by ICT, but just last week i resigned. I'll be reviewing for boards uli so i have to focus on it, kaya nag-resign nako, anyways it's a nice experience, at least may mailalagay man lang ako sa resume if ever i apply for a new job..

lapit na birthday ko, nag-ka chiken pox pa pala ko, pero now pagaling na siya, so ok narin..pagsubok nga naman..hehe..im Single now, and lovin it..naubos din ang pasenxa at awa sa katawan ko..kinain siguro ng virus ng chicken pox ko hehe yak!..

sige yun lang, nadaan lang ako...miss ko rin kasi mag-post dito...

GODBLESS.

my bf...

2006-04-22T02:57:00.000+08:00

hehe..la lang..just want to make a post for you babe..

chinito ka daw?...di namn sa personal..pa-cute ka lang talaga sa mga pics mo..hehe
anyhoo..this guy is:

~understanding? whe? totoo ba yun?..minsan po totoo..
~sweet? pag may nagwang kasalanan at nangungulit..
~makulit? sobwa!!
~love ako? oo daw...hmpft

msg for you: i love you now...u knw wat i mean..

at the funeral....

2006-03-06T14:30:00.000+08:00

hmm that went well....at last tapos narin yun and maayos nang nailibing si nanay..
my dear Nanay..hay miss ko na siya...lalo na ngayong graduation na, hmm sana inabutan pa nya toh, pero i know, may reasons, and wherever she is right now, i know she's happy na...

here are some pics...

conan & treck nicky, ate jhoi and me

jolina, me, kc and ate jhoi

oh well...

2006-01-19T23:38:00.000+08:00

today is his bday...gEEzz..ano kaya ginagawa nya ngayon?? is he celebrating with his friends? or just with his gf? hehe..just wonderin...at least i remember its his bday today diba?..la lang..

oh well we're dismissed early by our intructor. we are supposed to have our duty from 6pm-6am, yeah 12 hrs so we'll have no class on saturday...it fine i can rest or just go out with my family..

hmmm we're havin trouble na naman talking. I don't know what to do, really. I don't know how to continue a realtionship, na ako nalang ata ang laging umiintindi..bahala na...i have to think of other things than waste my time on this..

sige sleep narin ako..byE!

bring me to life....

2006-01-06T17:21:00.000+08:00

2006 na..bilis ng araw noh?...2more months and im holding a degree na..

pero, still dami pa haharapin bago ko makamit mga pangarap ko...nuXx pangarap daw oh?

last dec.25, yung christmas parang ordinary nalang rin..for the first time, di rin ako nag-regalo sa mga inaanak ko, for the first time, di ko ni-celebrate ang pasko kasama pamilya ko, for the first time, may bf ako ngayong pasko. daming first time noh?..tsktsk

26, sad. rhod's lolo passed away..tsktsk..c rhod pa yung bantay when it happened. kaya ayun, masayang malungkot at pagtatapos ng taon..

new year, 2006 na, spent the new year's eve with rhod and his family..as if naman kasi may kasama ako dito sa house, andito sila tita, pero ayoko namam talaga dito mag-celebrate.so ayun, kahit di ako pinayagan ni mama, pumuta parin ako..hehe umuwi rin ako ng umaga ng 1 coz i know darating relatives ko. dumating nga. hehe

right now, dami prob, gipit sa money, di namn ako matulungan ni rhod coz i know, may prob din siya sa money ngayon..pero its ayt we're just praying malampasan namin to lahat.

sige yun nalang muna.

GODBLESS.

3days before christmas...

2005-12-23T06:00:00.000+08:00

hmm...

sobrang lamig kanina when I and sha went to attend the mass...until now may ubo parin ako..last day ng school yesterday and vacation na..but we'll be back Jan 2 rin daw, so saglit lang rin ang vacation namin...

3days to go, its christmas again...for the first time, di ako mag-reregalo sa mga inaanak ko..hehe la eh hirap ng buhay...next year nalang at baka dat time may work nako..hehe

sige yun lang, nadaan lang ako...GODBLESS.

sick =(

2005-12-15T02:29:00.000+08:00

hayz, ayan nagkasakit rin ako for abusing myself :(( sobra kasi mga lakad ko kahit umuulan kaya siguro nagkasakit n talaga ko :(

had my grad pics na, its ayt naman, nagkaron naman ng buhay..hehe

la talaga ko masabi, kung ano ano nalang tinatype ko, kung baga, in random lumalabas sa bibig ko =)) ka-chat ko gf ni sherwin..sakit ng lalamunan ko :(( ang nakakainis pa, sinsipon nako now! kung sana ubo nalang eh bigla naman ako sinipon! hmpft bwisit talaga...

tom may review na naman..ang lamig sa room namin sa scuL, kaya inuubo rin ako ng todo..sana naman di maxado malamig bukas :((

oh sige wala nako masabi, hihirapan kasi ako matulog pero pilitin ko na in a while..

kapagOd...

2005-12-09T15:12:00.000+08:00

i had the tiresome duties of my life the past 3 weeks!..

2weeks for National Center for Mental Health and 1week for San Lazaro Hospital...

sa NCMH, you'll be touched by different stories of the patients...sa una xempre nakakatakot, pero in the long run, you'll find this duty to be the most fulfilling...hay...

sa SLH naman, nkaka-awa, those kids na may mga communicable diseases, hay bakit kelangan sa kanila pa yun mangyari..but of course, may purpose si God diba...

oh weLL...dami requirements na kailangan tapusin before Christmas...

speaking of Christmas, sana maging masaya naman ako kahit konti...dami ko kasi kasalanan sa family ko kaya i know, baka di maging maganda Christmas ko =(

bounce muna..GODBLESS.

its been a whiLe...

2005-11-18T10:39:00.000+08:00

whew!

i miss posting here! oh weLL..dami nangyari the past months.. di ko nga ine-expect most of them to happen..pero thats it..hehe nangyari ang mga di ineexpect..nagka-bf na uli ako..oh diba talagang bago..and now, we're one month and we're really okay..

lapit na graduation..im glad mejo nakukumpleto ko na yung requirements for board exams..yung delivery cases nalang ang kulang ko..yung mga operations, OK na...sana matapos na yun para di kami mahirapan come grad days..

im happy i have rhod with me..kahit malayo kame sa isa't-isa, pinipilit namin magkita..un nga lang xempre gastos at pagod..pero wala ko magagawa eh..sacrifice talaga pag nagmamahal diba?

oh xa, nadaan lang naman ako..ingatz!

wasap??

2005-10-03T05:27:00.000+08:00

im back...

nyahaha sorry tagal ko di nag-sulat dito....dami ko kasi ginagawa the past months...

anyways ayan patapos na ang sem and last sem na namin ang susunod..hopefully...hekhek

anyhow wala parin pagbabago...hmmmm...

hay sige pasok naKo eh...bubye..

foE riL...

2005-08-29T04:59:00.000+08:00

waaa 4 days akong walang class! kaya most of the time or always..eh nasa harap lang ako ng pc..hehe la kasi magawa...pero minsan rin nag-babasa ako ng books..kelangan ko talaga mag-aral kung gusto ko makapasa ng boards...kaya yun..as much as possible, yun nga, now palang nag-babasa nako palagi...

haay..ngayon nalang ulet ako nagka-crush..hEhehe..

yung isa kOng crush, taga schOoL...yung isa naman, nakita ko lang sa friendster...

...yung sa scHOoL...haayz gOody tyPe ata...i always seE him after my spanish class...kasi they'll be the nExt onE to use the room...he's so tall and always smells good..haay..he's such a hottie...sana wala pa siya gf...we're even textmates..nakita na ata niya ko sa friendster..he always forward love quotes..hehe sana nga sakn lang nya sinesend ung mga un..lolers..

...yung isa ko namang crush...well nakita ko lang sa friendster...when im browsing pages i don't know..aun nakita ko...di ko naman lam is he's nice or wat...sa profile lang info nakalagay 'bout him eh kulang-kulang...il post pic of him..sana di niya matunton blog ko..hehe pag nagkataOn yaRi ako..hehe..He's from Tondo. yun lang info nakalagay sa page nya =( kasi naman new user lang ata siya ng friendster at wat the date he signed stated...

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haay sana lang di nya toh makita...at baka idemanda nya ko...oh well cute naman nya noh?...sana lang mapansin mo ko..bwahahahahha

sige na nga tama na pag-iilusyon ko...out na ko...di kasi ako makatulog kaiisip sa kanya...

~1luv~

gEttin harder =(

2005-07-16T18:18:00.000+08:00

whew! i've been doin a lot of school stuffs lately and its tiring goin to and from Laguna every week =( but that's college life..nursing life..kapagod but worth it =)

haayz nasabi ko na ba yung about nino?..after almost 2 yrs of no communication, he finally txted me days ago...nalaman ko na reason nya why he left me before and now, after he told me na mahal na pa niya ko, iniwan na naman nya ko ulet =( sad but life goes on for everybody...lagi naman ganon diba?..so much of him.enough!.

haayz prelim is sked this monday na...hope makapag-aral ako this sunday...

GODBLESS..

wasap?

2005-07-02T09:59:00.000+08:00

wasaP?..

hmmmm i'm so damn tired of school but im enjoying it..my hardships are payin back..i toped one major exams in mEds..and im glad 'bout it...this month we're havin our immersion in laguna..im kinda excited but sick of the idea staying there for a couple of days w/o goin home..lolers..

i've moved on, i suppose and im lovin it..im more focused now on my studies and im tryin very hard to get good grades in all of my subjects..hope so.

GODBLESS. laterz!

end

2005-06-21T13:35:00.000+08:00

its over now and im glad i did the break-up =)

after all that we've been through....

2005-06-13T04:07:00.000+08:00

after almost 1 month after the break-up, nagkita kame last May 27, tsktsk...grabe noh?...gulat din ako eh.. he even stayed until SUNDAY!!! hahahaha.. mah bad. pero i dunno., hirap talaga kalaban ang puso..hirap magkunwari..so now, we're back together..pero iniisip ko parin hinde kame...para hinde ako maxado masaktan if ever..i kno kasi marami parin siya gurLz...mag-sasawa rin yun oneday...ehekz. sana nga lang..

ah basta miss ko mag-blog kaya nadaan ako..i dunno naman ano isusulat ko..tungkol na naman sa lovelife eh ka-boring na..hehe..

pasukan na on tuesday!! ginawa kasing holiday ang monday so ayun..anyhow 4th yr nako..busy na naman..sana lang makumpleto ko na cases ko..kasi inde pa eh =( hay buhay..sana maka-grad nako..kasawa narin mag-aral =( i want to work na and earn money on my own =) to help my family and anyone who needs my help =) ahehe pang miss-U ang statement..

miSs my baby =)

sshhh...basahin nyo toh. an eye-opener talaga :)

2005-05-08T23:42:00.000+08:00

whew!

i've been stuckep up for quite sometime din noh? pero wala..i have to keep surviving..i have to overcome my fears..
sabi nga ni sir darius, "what u hate, u will become, and what you fear it will follow you.."

ang sarap umattend ng review ng psychiatric nursing, sobrang matututo ka tlaga about life..that everything has a purpose..lam mo yung tipong bakit ganon, bakit ganito..mag-kakaron ng sagot pag nakinig ka sa kanya...and his lectures are for reaL..reality base nga eh..talagang mapapaisip ka, coz i myself eh nararanasan yung mga sinasabi nya..evrything, be it love, family prob, and naka-relate talaga ko sa depression and suicide issues..i shoulde've met him before pa..eh di sana nalaman ko na noon pa na napakasarap talaga mabuhay..

problems are always there..it will always be there. just like devil, bad vibes..it'll forever be around the corner..its US, who happens to be the mentor of our minds and hearts, and kailangang lumaban tayo..maybe you're caught between, not speaking and or fighting ur prob. I better be fighting than die in major depression..

napag-aralan ko rin yun..kasi pag less verbalization of feelings..it will increas ur anxiety..kaya mas maganda na there are people around you na pwede mo i-share mga probs mo, or even just your ideas kahit wala kang prob..
mas magiging maganda ang tingin mo sa buhay pag may mga opinyon kang nariring galing sa ibang tao..at the same time, nag-kakaroon ka ng picture na ang mga tao sa paligid mo ay ganon pala mag-isip..pero in the end its you parin, who will decide for your good.

right now..im contented with wat i have..naisip ko, pag yung mga problema ko, sinabay ko sa mga pangarap ko, ma-dedepress ako lalo, so i take it slowly this time..kasi takot ako honestly, ayoko na mag-kamali..Hindi ko sinasabi na nag-kamali ako sa last relationship ko..its an eye-opener for me. so many things happened. you might fnd it in my previous posts..pero thats life..there's no such thing as accident, there's always a purpose for everything :) kaya nga im just thinking of the brighter side of a heartbreak :) of course meron yun diba?..unless you're too bitter to admit na wala na talaga..hehe pero para sakin, xempre meron nga :)

always look up to what GOD has planned for you. You don't have to dictate yourself to be like this or be like that. GOd has a better plan for your life. better plans i mean..sobrang dami. kaya i know, if i've done something wrong, or something painfull happened to me, eh dahil mahal ako ng Diyos, gusto nya ko matuto. Now i know i just have to go with the flow, flow of God's love in my life. :)

loveu all.

GODBLESS :)

i was not prepared enough...to fall so deep inlove..

2005-04-17T13:35:00.000+08:00

No Ordinary Love
Mymp (revive)

This could have been just another day
But instead we're standing here
No need for words, it's all been said
In the way you hold me near
I was alone on this journey
You came along to comfort me
Everything i want in life is right here

Chorus:
'cause this is not your ordinary
No ordinary love
I was not prepared enough
To fall so deep in love
This is not your ordinary
No ordinary love
You were the first to touch my heart
Made everything right again
With your extraordinary love

I get so weak
When you look at me
I get lost inside your eyes
Sometimes the magic is hard to believe
But you're here before my weary eyes
You brought joy to my world
Set me so free
I want you to understand
You are every breath that i breathe

Chorus:
This is not your ordinary
No ordinary love
I was not prepared enough
To fall so deep in love
This is not your ordinary
No ordinary love
You were the first to touch my heart
Made everything right again
With your extraordinary love

From the very first time that we kissed
I knew that i just couldn't let you go at all
From this day on, remember this:
That you're the only one that i adore
Can't we make this last forever
This can't be a dream
'cause it feels so good to me

Chorus:
This is not your ordinary
No ordinary love
I was not prepared enough
To fall so deep in love
This is not your ordinary
No ordinary love
You were the first to touch my heart
Made everything right again
With your extraordinary love

~hay yan ba ang kantang bagay sakin ngayon?...nyahehe...wala lang...

~enjoy ako nung outing namin last friday sa 8 waves, kahit napakadaming prob, stiLL nagawa nmin mag-enjoy..oh weLL, masaya naman talaga ksama mga groupmates ko eh..

~dating ata ni ace ngayon galing curciLLO, sana contakin naman nya ko...im going to Paranaque na tomorrow kasi dun muna ko tira for one week sigurO..pero ayos lang..at least new environment. :) PEro il surely miss my rOom, si unan....hay sana mag-txt man lang si ace..miss ko na talaga siya =(

wats happenin?...im sad really =(

2005-04-04T16:07:00.000+08:00

haay bakit ganon...parang magulo na =(

wag naman sana =( ayoko ng nararamdaman at naiisip ko...

kelangan makausap ko siya =( ng hinde kame nag-aaway..oh well 2 days na kame di nag-uusap =( ano gagawin ko?..hinde ako sanay.. nalulungkot talaga ko ngayon..

ahhh basta il pray nalang..sana maging ok na =(

hmmm...wala lang...

2005-04-01T15:22:00.000+08:00

monthsary namin today...pero di pa kame nag-uusap..may lakad kame later mga 6pm kaso hinde pa xa nag-coconfirm kung tuloy..

galing kame outing yesterday, ok lang naman...ganon parin..

oh well nag-sulat lang ako kasi parang sama ng loob ko kay ace, di man lang nag-paparamdam, tapos ako pagod na contakin xa..hinde naman kasi nila binibigay fone sa kanya..

parang gusto ko na naman tuloy gumawa ng isang major decision...haaayy...naguguluhan na naman ako. =(

damn fine..

2005-03-24T18:51:00.000+08:00

hello....hello.....hello....

finally!...na-meet na ng Mom ko si ace..haha its funny pa nga, coz all the while, my Mom, 2 pamangkins, they're the ones waiting kay ace sa garahe namin, and im watching the tv sa sala..hehe they're more excited to meet my asawa..lolx. after ko ipakilala kay mama si acey, nag-paalam na kame kasi punta kame sa house ng friend ko. sabi pa ni mama wag daw kame papa-gabi umuwi, pero ang nangyari, umuwi kame ng maaga na, 11am ata..the next day na yun..hahah bad me!

oh well im happy rin kasi na-meet narin ng mga closest friends ko si ace. they're just too happy that i am happy with ace narin. They're all nice and treated ace with fondness...i thank my friends for bein like that..eversince naman na may ipakilala ako sa kanila eh, they're all very supportive. love yah guys!

its been a while since na nagkita na naman kame ng mga friends ko,..msg ko sa knila toh..

CHE and CHLOE - oh well im happy for you guys..and dont worry we're always here for you no matter what.. GODBLESS sa inyo. Now that may baby kayo., be more matured and responsible for your baby ha..

MHING - tOL, yehey! buti nalang nakasama ka! pucha miss na miss ka na namiN!..hehehe wats life w/o you? pootah..tol kita kits ulet ah!..

VINA - tol aga mo nalasing!...natulog ka agad! la toh!..sus kaw talaga...kita kits!

SHYNE & TIN - hahaha...i love you TIN and SHYNE!, thankz sa pag-away nyo sa mga nanggugulo samin ni ace..pootah , buti nalang magaling kayo sa away..hahah senxa na tol ah, hinde kasi ako marunong nun..heheh love u let!

AVE - tol salamat ah, senx n abuso na ata kame sa sahod mo..hahha...bawi rin kame!

may nakalimutan ba ko?...si baby! ACE! thankz for bein so patient samin ng mga friends ko..pansin mo naman mejo nautusan tayo kagabi ng madalas..hehehe ayos lang yn basta mag-kasama tayo diba?..

oh yan basta see yah guys sa outing natin sa Wed! mautuloy yun for sure diba?..

love you all...

summer starts..

2005-03-19T19:54:00.000+08:00

whew...so hot these days..

summer heat is fLowin..i reaLLy nEEd to hiT the beach and unwind.

buT how, i stiLL have cLAsses..hahaha

im just glad i have ace with me..hahaha

loveyah babe.

jsut chiLLin..

2005-03-16T18:33:00.000+08:00

went out kanina with meL and WinsiR..

hay chiLL lang. finals starts tom, hope maka-aral ako tonight and be ready to answer questions tom..whew..anong oras na?..its already 6:30pm, wala parin text or call si ace sakin...tulog pa kaya?..asan kaya yun?..hehe baka tonight na naman kame usap, sabagay gising naman ako kasi mag-aaral ako, after goin online ngayon, il sleep muna para ok later..

laters! mwuah.

im happy..hope this goes on and on...

2005-03-14T18:04:00.000+08:00

i deserve all these happiness happenin in my life right now..

yesterday March 13, 2005, me and ace heard mass @ Baclaran Church, that was 7-8pm..i bumped onto ma'am au, one of the nurse in opd, osmun. I never imagined Ace wud be that religious..i dunno but I can feel his closeness to the Lord. I can't describe the happiness i felt when im with him.

I hope things wud be like this always, But I know, every relationship has flaws. I just hope we'll be matured enough to handle all struggles that will come our way.

Right now, im just glad, he's with me and I have someone, who inspires me a lot.

GODBLESs us.

life's a gamble..

2005-03-10T17:14:00.000+08:00

whew!..ang saya ko ngayon, i deserve to be happy afterall right?...dami ko na ping-daanan and now that i have ace in my life, il treasure every minute of us bein together.

But still i have my priorities in me.i just hope na kahit serious ako sa relationship namin eh, maiisip ko parin mga priorities ko..hehehe

basta im happy madalas kame mag-kasama, kasi hinde ako maxado busy..sa sunday simba kame, yey! gusto ko kasi xa makasama sa simbahan..la lang..

basta msaya kame ayos na.

loveu baby.

arriane...ü

2005-03-08T23:55:00.000+08:00

anne...hay i've known this gurl for almost a year and so already...she's a very fine lad, who at first you might find intimidating or snob, but heck, for all the people who don't know her, she's a very fine gurL..

i have her now, i wanna have her forever . no one can harm our baby anne, thats according to ace. hmmm mana sila ng dad nya, matigas ulo minsan, hinde nakikinig sakin pero ayos lang..i love both of them.

hope we cud spend some time together..gusto namin xa makasama ni ace, also to thank her for bein the best daughter she cud be..

basta we're always here for you. yaan mo haters mo, ace and me wil take good care of you.

oh wait, bago ko makalimutan, BOYS, will always be there. maxado ka pang bata para mag-seryoso ok?..im not against of you having a bf already, at your young age, ayos lang yn..basta bear in mind na, love yourself more that you love the guy..whoever he is, just make sure, kilala namin xa and lam ni dad mo yan..we're here to support you relationship..di namin kayo papakialaman, but then pag pinaiyak ka niya, or niloko, saka kami makikialam ok?..

study hard and always pray.mwuah

GODBLESS US.

love dad & mom.

finally..

2005-03-08T22:44:00.000+08:00

whew!...that fuckin guy i hate you!...bwahaha but id like to thank you, kasi dahil sayo nagkita kame ni ace ko =)..hahaha

tagal namin magkasama, from 12-6am ata..then may class pa ko ng 7am, pero ayos lang..masaya naman ako..nahawakan ko rin si pillow for the first time..hehe i love her!..sana tira na xa dito sa house..kaso hinde pa pwede eh..kasi di pa siya nababakunahan =( ah basta ang cute ng dog ko hehe

oh well i enjoyed every minute of us bein together..wala lang..parang ayaw na namin mag-hiwalay. cant forget March 08, hehehe basta super saya..sana lagi nalang kame mag-kasama =)

oh well, looking forward on spending more time with my baby.

wats up?...

2005-03-07T01:35:00.000+08:00

oh well., watched million dollar baby awhile ago with ave, after hearing mass @ greenbelt, we decided to watch it. afterall ngayon nalang ulet kame nakalabas ni ave.

i had a good sleep kanina, real good! sobrang haba, after duty, mga 7am, nakatulog na agad ako, until 6om na yun! so almost 12 hours sleep kO!!..and thats awesome! ngayon nalang nangyari sakin yung ganon!

oh well sana tom maganda start ng day ko..

out na po :)

wala lang uli..hehehe...

2005-03-04T14:48:00.000+08:00

walang magawa, kaya i decided to write nalang dito..

last night nag-start yung graveyard shift ko ng 10pm-6am, @ Pasig City Gen. oh well masaya naman, im with Kat's group kasi nga nilipat muna ko. all of them are nice naman..puro tawanan and kwntuhan..minsan feeling ko op ako, kasi this is the first time il be in their group although mga classmates ko rin sila. pero they're very accomodating..

hmmm...i kinda like kix now, pero lagi kaming nag-tatalo kasi most of the time we're opposites. lam m yung tipong lagi kame nag-tatampuhan. sabi niya sakin, kaya daw nya ko nagustuhan kasi napaka-matampuhin ko..ako naman sabi ko OK xa, kasi naiintindihan nya mga pag-iinarte ko..uyyy i want it in a guy., at least diba hinde nya na tatapatan pa ng isang pag-iinarte, pag ako yung nag-iinarte..what I dont want sa kanya naman eh minsan, kung ano ano nalang nasasabi nya, like he wanna resign sa job and umuwi nalang sa dad nya sa iloilo..ngek pano na ko?.hehehe

sige til here nalang muna...mwuah.

talk about depression...

2005-02-27T07:45:00.000+08:00

depression strikes and it hit me =(

waaah can't believe im feelin it that when i shudn't be..i dunno why but it suckZz..

im happy suddenly i get lonely, i feel alone and it seems no one loves me..geee i almost have everything in life but why i am suffering this =(

ayoko ng ganito, im happy bein with my friends and im contented with why i have..but it seems that something is still missin' in mah life =(

hope il make up my mind soon. dont wanna be like this for long =(

i hate myself =(

2005-02-26T20:18:00.000+08:00

i hate myself...

~* for loving someone stoopid.
~* for me being stoopid also =(
~* i hate myself coz ive been very good..
~* i hate it coz im not bad
~* i hate myself for that fuck! reconciliation.

i wanna be bad =( that.s all i wanna do now..fuck life bein good all the time..

naaabuso nalang palagi pag mabait ka, pag ginagawa mo lahat para maging ok =( sayo na lahat ng sacrifices..all the tears, but then..hinde sa naghahanap ka ng kapalit..pero grabe naman pag puro sakit nalang nararamdaman mo diba?..cant just i be happy afterall the goodness in me, the goodness i've done..??

FUCK STUPID YOU!

i love my baby..

2005-02-23T16:07:00.000+08:00

oh eto na po, nyahaha napilitan...

oh well had a pre-board a whle ago sa school, oh my, i think marami pa ko hinde alam, i have to study more para pumasa..damn! dam nag-kalat epal sa school, mayayabang pa! kainis!..

we went to Market Market for lunch, eat out in Tokyo Tokyo, nyays! dami ko na naman nakain :( after that, we went sa Timezone...for heaven's sake, nababaliw na kame sa basketball, ka-addict grabe! oh well, ubos rin pera xempre.but it was fuN! spending time with my friends..its really great! minsan lang naman eh..

later we'll watch the concert of Session Road and Spongecola...other bands will play too..it is for our school's foundation week..excited!

i love my baby, hmmp kaw ha, may lakad ka today pero inde mo na naman sinipot!..lagot ka sakin baby!..hehehe sige po gawn mo na pinapagawa ko sayo..lovelots!

till here muna, laterz!

Life goes on...

2005-02-21T21:48:00.000+08:00

its been quite a while...so lazy and stoopid to update my blog..

my lolo's ok na, he went home from the hospital two days ago, but he's still weak to walk on his own so we're helping him do adl's..oh well we've been there from the start and that won't change until he's capable to do things on his own.

finals is coming, i have to study hard, i failed some of my midterm exams and that suckz! duty this month @ icu, muntinlupa, its quite toxic but im learning to like the set-up..hope il stay longer, coz its really fun working there..

today we're celebrating the 3rd year foundation week, so nothing impt to do sa school, watch lang mga concert and sports games daw..

we went out kanina, with vina, shyne and aimee,,can't believe we got addicted sa timezone! hehehe wala lang...feel lang namin mag-laro ng maglaro that time...ni-meet ni aimee si alvn, oh well he's mayabang..haha. hate to say it but its true..ewan nga bakit ganon yun..pero i dont care..nyahaha.i enjoyed wat we did kanina, haha lots of kwento..hope maulit yun, love timezone!!!

ahhmm wat else do i have to share?..im back with him..yeah HIM, i hope mag-work n dis time...we're not getting younger anymore, hope i wont act stooopid also..hihi..oh well GODBLESS us.

bounce muna..

MOOD = steady.

waiting in vain for your love..

2005-02-15T00:34:00.000+08:00

valentines passed!..wheh...so tired after school, nakatulog agad ako..i wanna sleep na sa last subject sa school but i can't. kahiya sa prof galing pa naman mag-turo..hehe

i think i'l fail one of my subject..that fackin NRES. :( mah bad..gotta hit the books right away..and med surg too :(

no class tom, il visit my lolo probably..goin to buy some stuffs for school..

got no fackin inspiration right now.i got my lolo only in mah mind everyday..hope he'll get better soon..

so much for my happy ending =(

hanging still..

2005-02-13T09:22:00.000+08:00

hey, it's been quite a while, well i woke up early today and thinking of really writing to my blog. I missed 2 days i guess. And I might write some of what had happened the past 2 days......................

My lolo was already transferred to a private room, good thing he's not in the ICu anymore. but still we're praying for immediate recovery. I hope you guys will help me pray also. We're always there, most of my cuzins go there after classes. Haaay i pray that he'll soon recover fully so he can go home na. I'll be going there later.

Midterms is over and im hoping that il pass all my exams..We're still working on our thesis and its really givin us headaches!! darn that stooopid subject..although i kno everyone will really do their thesis before graduating, its just sad that i have personal problems and then sumabay pa nga trabaho sa school. I'm just managing my time properly para il be able to do everything.

I talked to him after quite sometime. I missed him honestly..But i pity myself for whats happening coz I can still remember those days he got a girlfriend and he's not talking to me as if i don't exist. He's coming home and he got so many plans for us. I jst hope i won't be that shy to go out with him. And i really don't know why he's doing this.. I jst hope everything will come into place.

GODBLESS.

calm...

2005-02-08T22:13:00.000+08:00

just got home from the hospital, i rushed to open the computer so i can write na agad here sa blog ko..i'm so excited to tell everyone na my lolo's gettin stronger each day, thanks sa prayers nyo ah..hope na mag-continue pa xa na lumakas..

most of us nasa hospital kanina, titos, titas and cuzins..kasi we know gusto ng lolo namin nakikita kaming andun with him..hehe..pinakain ko nga xa kanina, he can eat solid foods na so yun..

midterms' coming, thursday is my first day of test in Patho and History, hope maka-review na ko tonight and tomorrow. I know i can..

oh sige dito nalang muna..laterz!

thanks for the prayers..

2005-02-08T13:15:00.000+08:00

I'd like to say thank you to all the people who are helping us pray to get through this. hay my lolo's showing some improvement and we dearly hope it'll continue pa..

im goin to the hospital today coz i wasn't able to visit him yesterday..

GODBLESS us.

God help us...

2005-02-07T11:33:00.000+08:00

haaay..

nag-bantay ako yesterday sa hospital..haay i hope my grandfather will get better soon..i don't wanna see him there..i told him na mag-pagaling na xa for us, we're all there, my titos and titas, cuzins. we won't leave our dear grandfather alone there.

mamayang hapon, my mom will arrive from Pangasinan, i told her we need her here also.

Midterms is coming, wala pa ko naaaral, hay i hope maka-review na ko today kahit isang book lang =( i know my lolo wud be sad kapag may failing grades ako, so ayun, mag-aaral na ko =)

we badly need your prayers ngayon..please help us.

GODBLESS =(

one of the scariest day of my life..

2005-02-06T08:35:00.000+08:00

whew..

i got the shock of my life when i learned that my grandfather was rushed to the emergency room of Makati Medical Center :( He's really strong the fast few days but then why that happened to him :( I rushed to dress up, i wanna see if he's ok, but when i saw him, with lots of machines attached to his weak body, i cried :( i've handled a lot of patients before, pero pagdating sa lolo, nanghihina ako :( natutulala ako :(

Right now, he's still in the ICU, i hope he'll get better na, i don't wanna see him sa hospital ever, or any of my family members :(

haaay, im so damn depressed right now =(

hehehe..

2005-02-05T14:09:00.000+08:00

uyyy may new gf na naman x ko, i hope seryoso na xa sa gurl na yun, which happens to be a friend of mine also..lagot xa sakin pag niloko nya yun hehehe.

uwi daw friend ko this may..wish nya lang makipag-kita ako sa kanya..hehehe si bes david ko rin uuwi from canada., meet ba kita bes?..hehehe siguro hinde rin..nyahaha basta ba may pasalubong ka for me..

haaay wlang duty today, so ayan mag-hapon na naman ako sa internet..

uy nakasabay ko online yng crush ko, hehe wala lang..mwuah ü

moonlight over paris...like this song..

2005-02-05T11:30:00.000+08:00

Moonlight Over Paris

You say you've been overseas
I say over where
You say just a holiday
My Alsatian heir
I say I've been working late, working overtime
Haven't seen the sun since eighty-nine
Does the moonlight shine on Paris
After the sun goes down
If the London Bridge is falling
Will anybody hear a sound
If you follow the sunset will it ever end
Does the moonlight shine on Paris

Oh and how can you just walk away
Is it something that I said
I see only black and white
You see green and red
You believe in the miracles
Water into wine
I believe it when it makes the New York Times

Does the moonlight shine on Paris
After the sun goes down
If the London Bridge is falling
Will anybody hear a sound
If you follow the sunset will it ever end
Does the moonlight shine on Paris

whew!

2005-02-05T09:49:00.000+08:00

waaah, morning!

went out last night with friends..the original plan was to watch a movie lang. But when we arrived at Eastwood, Libis, we just decided to eat nalang. Since the Yellow Cab just opened their branch there, we ate there.

me, gayle and shine talked about stuffs..hehe makin chismis to the max..mean gurls, we are, last night.hay im glad saw them again, out of our busy lives hehehe. Gayle is really keen on resigning na from her work. We also drop by their office and saw the guy he kept on saying na crush nya. He's fine but kinda snob though. But maybe he's like that 'coz we're not really acquainted. hehe

i bought an earing, its really cute, and i've been eyeing one in Glorietta but its really mahal. And when i saw it last night in Eastwood, only 100 bux..grab it na hehe.

Got home at around 2am..hay Ace got mad na naman. I know its mah fault, he asked me to go out kasi yesterday but i refused and told him im still sick. Kaya when he learned na nasa Libis ako, ayung nag-tampo na. until now, di parin kame nag-uusap.

I don't know if we'll have a duty today, sana wala. 2-10pm ICU @ Ospital ng Muntinlupa..geeee...hope wala kaming duty.

later..

sTarTin ovEr..

2005-02-05T06:04:00.000+08:00

waaah i hate it!..nag-sulat ako ng napakahaba but nabura yun :(

oh weLL startin over..i love to have a new bLog. my friends keep on makin "buyo" for me to have my own blog but now lang that i made up my mind that i should have one nga.

i have no duty today and im goin out tonight with friends..

its good that i have a free day today, we've been very busy the past few days dahil sa mga requirements ng mga professors. thesis and all. to top that, i still have my hospital duty. this month im assigned at the Intensive Care Unit of Ospital ng Muntinlupa. The patients there are all in their critical conditions so we're always alert kasi yun nga. Hope everyone there will recover soon.

my dad's comin today from Pangasinan, i hardly see them coz my family -dad-mom-ana is already based there for 3 years now. im staying here in makati with my lolo and lola, i hope he'll stay long. but i guess not =(

hope ill enjoy the tonight's lakad. i hardly go out with my friends, i miss some of them. maybe we'll go to a place where we can talk and update each other's lives. haaay.. my bestfriend, galye, told me she's resigning from her work, oh i said its sayang!, dami walang job today so sayang diba?..but she has her reasons, so il respect her.

later!

GODBLESS.

Kwon Sang Woo

2005-02-04T15:15:00.000+08:00

hahaha i love you..lolx..

ngayon nalang ulet ako nainlove sa isang actor *laughs*

i've been goin gaga over the korean telenovela Stairway To Heavem aired at GMA channel 7 every night. weekdays..hay i-promote daw oh..

hay basta..kainlove character nya..how i wish one day il be his love interest nalang..every night nalang ako napupuyat dahil kay cholo..hehehe

naalala ko kasi xa, kaya ayan post na naman ako dito..

bYE na talga..

sleep nako, kasi gimik pa tonight.hehe